Endurance

It's the longest endurance in life, my mind like unstable thinking what happened, maybe it's the medicine that made me like this, I really loss memory if I took medication but it's like a normal forget too, because I go to work just now means I really take medications I think should be, the hot feelings don't exist means I take fluoxetine already, maybe it's like a lump of new medicine making me feel fat.

I have to understand life that nobody is helping me but just the obvious needs - to live like normal people, I don't know why they believe treatment to me is special or good.

I think they just pushing me to become like Hisyammuddin the days he Solat, but I remember working is considered as pahala jihad said like that, I think I don't have a choice in life, it's too early to Solat I think, I don't mind being the only one that don't Solat in my family and relatives, my mind is currently blank like I can't think of what to write I just feel the boredom and like a no life thinking of the same girl over and over again, I need to have a life.

Life is about having pets, I think it's just anhedonia created me jam in my brain and feeling nothing.