Remembering thinking "I'm Dajjal"

Because Alisha made me believed I'm Dajjal, I thought Dajjal is a wonderful man, that Love will win over Islam because I thought I'm in I.M.H because they practice Islam "to tie orang kafir" then engrave or tattoo "Ka fa ra" on my forehead, many times in I.M.H I thought I will be turned into Dajjal, then painted and glued Red by Nippon Paint.

I thought I would take boat license 1 day and run to the nearest island or isle from Singapore with my Soulmate Sakinah, that will love me anyway because "we're both orphans" and she will somehow bear with me being 1 eye blinded in I.M.H, somehow she will remove the "Kafir" on my forehead is what I thought, like peeling my skin, or making more tattoos on top of it.

I thought Dajjal is from a pure family as fact because "I'm the Dajjal". I thought we will be living in an Island and I keep watching videos of war trap and houses created in holes or cave to learn of survival.

I thought the Real Allah will appear on Earth as a Human and be turned into the Real Dajjal, with Kafir at Forehead then nobody recognize him as Allah anymore because he's turned into a Dajjal for creating Humans that have incest sex(family sex) with each other then have babies from own family members. I thought my Battle is against Allah himself because wanting me to become Dajjal that Sakinah will remove "Kafir" from my forehead and Allah will become Dajjal instead. I thought there's 5 Souls that named as "A" "l" "l" "a" "h" that each will become Dajjal after I have been turned back into a normal Human Being after using Dajjal Powers to Turn Myself no longer Blind on 1 Eye.

The pain I experience was years and over 10 years I thought I'm not family member of my families and really sacrifice of Islam to become a Dajjal.

I drew art on items like making nice "Dajjal" writings art like Graffiti of Own Name. I thought I'm Dajjal, then I use nick on i.r.c as "Dajjal_One" meaning "The First Dajjal". I thought it will become a War of Magic and True Love of Sakinah and Me will win the War by White Magic and I will become a Wizard because I know how to create a Wand. I think of putting Tamiya engine and pressure of wind increased inside the Wand and become a Wind Wand, I even wanted to Business A Wand and thought nobody had such idea before and it's what making me a Wizard.

It's weird I didn't become famous on the internet or public news when I appear on i.r.c as Dajjal, I also appear on Super Mech Bot Chatroom Game channel as "Anas Qai" claiming as Dajjal and Jesus(after my eyes not blinded and removed Kafir at my forehead).

Another thing is I thought Shahridah became a Jew then Wahdiah became a Christian, both thinking they married Jesus(me instead) and we won't have children because "wanting babies in Heaven" and life too long wasted.

The recovery didn't happen even after 20+ years long, and this year is the final year I'm taking medicine properly, so I assume it as final year, nobody of my family members sued Alisha I remember last year Hari Raya I requested my Aunt to sue Alisha because of the mind created to me by her then I don't know if she will sue.

If sue Alisha I would have a lot of money then I have less worry of money because my mind was created to think I "Dilaknat" then because of White Magic and True Love, Allah lost the Battle and become a Dajjal on Earth Instead that nobody recognize him because of "Kafir" at Forehead, means I thought the real Allah is the real Dajjal that nobody knows that he enter Hell of his Own Creation and be burnt in Hell 1 day for wanting me to become Dajjal.