Times Flies

It feels so fast, tomorrow I will visit worksite and I'm so happy about it, I hope it will be smooth and nice working feeling. I really hope I will achieve higher in life like becoming someone really successful in life, this temporary job is because of my stamina due to schizophrenia. I plan to work 3 years like this but then 2027 maybe I'm really taking O-level, I really don't know hope doctors tell me. The imagination of finding a job elsewhere is hard, it may be a lot of work or imagination of safety shoes which is hard, I really just need a normal wear to work.

Today is my 5th working day for March and I've done it successfully, it's really easy kind of work but lately going home around 11.20a.m, it's so late, at first it was fast now it became later abit but I'm okay about it, it's better than nothing.

Imagining my single life working as dishwasher at Tampines, it's definitely going to be hard, I really need to do something about my achievements, I definitely can do higher if I'm higher stability like no schizophrenia because of my scores, then schizophrenia really is so bad I need to be slow and do light kind of jobs, but dishwasher is not light maybe then I just have to work hard for money first.

It's definitely the end of pain soon, anhedonia too in May, I will earn like normal people and have a life already, I wonder what makes it okay to be alone in life, it's really like a struggle as imagine dishwashing and earning money by ownself, a kind of job that's hopefully not tiring too, I really wonder if it's this job I will stay from 38 to 41 years old then don't do my O level maybe, it's really weird I'm so old already, then imagining doctors saying I will pass with high scores makes me really energetic to do too, I'm really too late in life already as a matter of fact.