Tomorrow my first working day

Is it final, I really want to believe doctor that I can do this, it's harsh nobody pitied me but let me go through this, if I was pitied I would've been given money to live my life normally. Now having $100+ cash with me and $260 in bank, I'm waiting for $144 and $162 to be transferred into my bank for working at jobclub, it simply means I will survive this April, I have May June July 3 more months after that to reach August of Government money. I imagine now $260+$144+$162 = $566 then +$100 in my wallet = $666. I really must split like $666/4 = $166.50 every month if I don't work in April but I'm working so I should have no problem in reaching August.

I'm truly excited for this job in April I hope I do well the job speed looks okay at my first visit there I really think I can do it. It's really heavy my life, I can't believe nobody pull me back to stop me from trying to work and just give me money, they don't pity me at all is surprising to me, what am I going to do in life then?

I have to goal on motorcycle license in May, then June July August, to have license by August or July, cause it's usually 3 months I think to get a license, I really hope I can do this, it's really heavy having to work in this schizophrenia but they all looked fine like I can work normally, I hope they're all right about this.

I posted a lot of dancing girl videos like story of doctor that I would post it a lot because of happiness of getting this job, then it really happened, doesn't this mean I really will earn $1500+ my first month? Why are there no psychic or future-teller kind of information to me? Why do I have to feel tomorrow first then I find out about it?