Sunday, March 1, 2026

Tomorrow work!

I really don't know what I'm doing in life just working whenever it's time, really don't know if it's really just a story or really wish of Sakinah that I do the I.M.H schedules for work, because small girl's voice was around at that time, I really loss all communication and my meeting with Sakinah became meaningless in M.R.T, it would have been special because I thought if true love is a kind of magical impact then it didn't happen, I didn't even get her to change her mind about monkeyface, I'm so unlucky like crazy.

Tomorrow I work at jobclub then the next week is mid March I hope I get a nice job, it's really hard this recovery just hoping for a nice job to end the pain of earning little money, the hardship is real I really have nothing to do in life, the passing hours is like in a ward but with Sofa and android, it's just so slow everyday it's like this, I wonder what I should do, I wonder what job I will get too, it's really hard waiting so long for a job.

Ramadan is like a horrible month of wasting money, it's tempting to buy takoyaki which is now 8 for $8, it's crazy it became so expensive, in the past it was 3 for $2. Then now it's like this, I wonder why prices goes up like this, my life is so nonsensical too.

I really didn't get attention of doctors to tell me information then I really can't do anything about it, the feeling like someone read becomes like a monitoring instead of someone that I can communicate me, nobody is helping me at all I am just surviving from my brother that gave me money.

I really feel like going out too, as I have nothing to do, but it's Sunday anyway, how to spend the hours of doing nothing in life, I'm really bored like hell. I feel like just skipping jobclub to get a job then I'm done, I really don't know what to do anymore, the injection every 4 weeks is difficult to be skipping working days then, I really have to stay at jobclub I guess.

Wonder why nobody add ease to my life, I'm just waiting for 38 years old to see if happiest moment is really true, why if it's something happy it can't happen earlier?

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