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Yesterday I dreamt of eating jelly, it's after eating kerang my mother cook it, maybe it's like a jelly until I dreamt of eating jelly. The dream meaning like looking good it means I will receive good news, I wonder if it's true, I hope dreams are like psychic information instead of what we feel in life then we dream of something alike when we sleep, I really want a good news in my life.

I plan to wear knee jeans to I.M.H today, just simple and fast day to I.M.H, the talk is estimated to be 30 minutes so I really don't know what will happen, I hope it's smooth and ends quickly, I'm really lazy for a painful type of conversation it's really sad and bad if I experience such thing.

I plan to journal every night only, then I don't read Iqra so much nowadays unless by mood 1 day maybe because I feel I will lose Sakinah anyway, then I don't know what to do, nobody tried to bring her to me and I'm left craving for her all alone like nobody cares kind of thing, it's weird nobody update me any good news about her it means it's just still bad as before sadly.

I don't know what I will be successful about in life, I have the common sense ideas of a guide then I really can't do them anyway, what's a better way to live my life I really don't know, I hope I find a better thing to do in life. Seeing myself as someone that don't Solat it feels impossible that I will become President of MUIS like story of doctor, I am not even learning Islamic stuff yet, it just don't make sense to me, I hope I get better things to do in life.