Done injection and debrief

It was fine, the talk said 2018 I didn't attend to jobclub even, it's crazy maybe it was many years ago then that I work at CleanMark, I know I ever work there before, it's true that the memory loss since 17 years old until now turning 38 years old feels like 1 year only, 21 years feels like 1 year, schizophrenia is weird why did my memory become like this? I truly hope I recover soon, it's also maybe due to happiness I met Sakinah at 17 years old during my B.M.C Academy days? Wow it's harsh she really let me get memory loss then tunang with monkeyface, it's weird she have no feelings of pity at all, from pity into love story? Its crazy.

Anyway now the jobclub is getting me job as dish collector I really hope I get this job, it's 6 days and 4 hours/day minimum I hope I can do it well too. I said the wrist pain and back pain caused me to quit working, but it's true anyway, even if at first I felt like quitting because of money, then there's actually no money at all too, it's weird my memory mix up like that, is schizophrenia false-memory like that or it's been so many years ago?

Later at night I will write another short journal, then I hope I still feel energetic to live my life in a recovery journal state/situation, I really have no attention at all and surviving my life like this.