Day 258 outside(306 on medications)

Wow today such a heavy wake up from bed, I woke up and bought redbull to make myself feel more refreshed and energized then at home I shower while listening to Spotify "Sakinah's Mix" Playlist, just 2 songs then the end of shower for me it was quite fast.

Today I will be sending my shirt back to Amoy Street, I really hope everything is smooth, I plan to send at 3p.m and going out at 2p.m later, it will be fast so I hope I remember the route to that place too.

Yesterday I wrote journal some lines about sending my shirt back today then that's all. I really hope journal fills up nicely and neatly. I highlight the date yellow in colour and the time green in colour, it looks quite becoming beautiful content.

I don't know if have notifications to Sakinah when I save her playlist, but I hope she noticed me or something, it's been so long then I endured schizophrenia without true pleasure coming into my life except food sometimes, I remember about Wahdiah that she thought I would be hospitalized when I loss my memory then I was not, it was bad then we didn't meet up, I'm sad our life becomes nothing in the end I'm turning 38 years old soon now then there's nothing I can do about it. Shahridah also sadly didn't contact me again and left me alone for so long, there's no try to reach at all and I'm also sad about the effort done as so little to nothing only.