Don't feel good this time

It's like a loss of peace, I wonder what the O.T plan to talk about, got msg to talk about it next Monday, it's weird, it don't feel nice at all, my ease like just gone like that but luckily it's on Monday, a working day, means it's not back to work but something else, told that I can't just quit just like that but last 2 years and last year it was like that, I just quit and send back my clothes I wonder why it's so hard this time.

It's my recovery age this year then they just won't let me be at peace with myself, it's so hard to live my life, I really don't know what to do but just heed to go I.M.H, it's so troublesome, why is my life like this? 12 P.M I have injection but talking first at 11 A.M, they don't pity that I have schizophrenia at all, what's there the need to talk about if I already quit, it's time for rest already my plan is to just focus on medications but it's like this instead.

I don't feel good this year like I will be warded again, it's definitely not a nice feeling all these that they plan out for me, after I.M.H should be just medicines and care but they give me jobclub which they hold my money then needing to talk on a job that I already quit, I don't understand at all why it's like that.

Not a nice day to feel this week until injection day. Sucks to be me I guess.