I have quit

Only confirmed by 1 Person then My O.T and the Company maybe don't know yet, it's harsh I hope it's smooth that I can just focus on my medications instead of talking alot more, I hope they make things smoother for me instead of a lot of panic in my heart, I really want this pain to end, work is not a thing for me to be feeling, I have decided it as okay to not get married because I can't work, means I'm already okay if I lost Sakinah, means I lost her before because of money, if not I would've tried harder then this time it's willingly, because I'm not a capable man and she can't just love a person then support at the same time, I can't get her love is her final answer I have understood.

Jobless, no money, no Sakinah, no lover, my life been ruined from start by schizophrenia anyway, I kept losing memory to tell the girl I love her, because of too much happiness makes me lose memory and too much anger makes me lose memory, I don't have the chance anyway, if I bump into Sakinah when I don't take my medicine, I would lose memory anyway, it's really harsh schizophrenia loss the chances of telling someone I love her.

It's reaching 1.30p.m my panic is building up but I have told Wei Jie I would quit work then I really don't know what's going to happen if the company would call me or not, I do a less panic way by blocking people and hope I grow to be calmer by 2.30p.m, it's hard my job made my back pain and I can't work, I rather exercise and build my body more than a back pain, it's better back pain from sit ups than work, because it builds body, this is too painful for me like a panic attack but nobody is around to comfort my heart. Tomorrow I will send back my clothes at workplace then it's over.