Mind feel slow

My mind feels slow and like little to write, it's less creativity, I feel like a boredom and sleepiness at the same time, it's kind of feeling sick that nobody cares but I only have some working days left then it's payday, it's really fast I hope.

I feel like there's nothing on my mind and stress about it, I feel empty and life like meaningless to live i really don't know what to do. Why is it like this?

Feeling sick now then luckily it's off day, I would have went to work anyway if it's not, they really decided that I work here anyway, it's really weird it's a repeat location of working somewhere I didn't receive my salary in the past, I wonder why I worked then if it's like this, it's crazy they sent me to the same location then I wonder about my old salary if I'm getting at all or not. I don't know why I feel it's unfair like this.

10 more days is my injection then it's finally going to be over, the last phase to go before change of medicine.

I feel my creativity is loss or missing as I have nothing to write. AdSense seems doesn't accept my advertisement request at blog to earn money then it means I have no other way of earning money except work, I really feel doctors blocked my path of finding a job by calling the agents to reject my applications, I really can't do anything but really just work here. It's really bad I don't understand this at all, maybe if I don't have adopted parents then it's not like this, it's too many like if imagine all of them give me $50/mth, I would be so rich I think, but life is not like that at all, I don't understand what they feel about me too, maybe it's only pity and that's all, but making me work hard and not giving me anything is really bad for me.