Weird dream

Dream of penis can unlock like ketupat and mine became a plastic triangle shape, it's really crazy I wonder what it means, it's weirdest dream and something new finally, I don't have any idea what it means. Is it I became crazy or something?

No doctors like Sakinah have to ask about dream meanings, my doctors are occupied to entertain Sakinah instead of me willingly by me, it's harsh this life Sakinah like not grateful about it or not telling them to help me more?

Today is my off day, Sat & Sun I work with Monday off again, it's really quick and a good rest I think, I really hope I get my salary on the 22nd April later. It's really bad I am surviving kind of life, and I really just work hard at work.

My readers have decreased, the attention is no longer confirmed and I don't know what to do in my life, I have nobody to believe about anything and Sakinah probably want me to boil in anger usually to create memory loss. It's really bad the decision is something nice feeling if memory loss then it happens, then it's decided as for a nice feeling instead of just letting me live like a normal person, they treat me like a normal person instead, like someone that doesn't have schizophrenia.