Monday, April 13, 2026

Not nice feeling in heart

It's weird the feelings, I really don't like it, but I just have to go work today, it's like a bad feeling in my heart then I just want to feel good, I wonder how.

Maybe just completing this 1/5 of this week will be a nicer feeling later. I don't feel like I'm fit to work at all, like my money is going to be taken away again, I really hate the feeling of getting nothing after my effort.

I don't know if I should continue working today or just message that I'm quitting work because I didn't get my jobclub money, I can't survive like this, it's really hard and they didnt contact me to confirm with me anything. Should I quit my job today? Should I continue working? Doctor said if I do 1 month of this it means I will become a psychologist/psychiatrist, it doesn't matter anymore it's about the pain I feel I think, I wonder why it's like this like I have to go through my life like this, there's no comfort from anyone at all, they really let me a poor life on purpose to not get any girl that I want too, it's really crazy my family's way, I have no choice but to quit working here I guess.

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