Tiring day today

The work became harder today, it's doing the heavy ones first before the lighter ones, it's really madness kind of tiring, my arms keeps moving to scrub the things, it was the most tiring day of all days I've worked, I wonder why it's like that, why am I doing this kind of work, but when I think again it's $1600/mth, I also hear voices of Alysha at work saying "Babu", means when I work is like a servant, it's really harsh knowing someone like her, but I have to go on living my life as she's just my neighbour, the end is not close, the plan of hacker job energized me when I think of Alysha's boyfriend, someone that will work hard doing this hacker database editor job for me, I'm really happy for the future knowledge by doctor, it's something happening but I don't know when, if my girls support me from now until december it would be nice, the pain would be so little, its harsh this job but I continue, in wishing to become a psychologist/psychiatrist, like story of doctor, it's really hard but I have to believe it will become equal to become a psychiatrist/psychologist.

I don't know why I haven't received my jobclub money, I should be considered as someone that quit smoking already and should just be given this money, it's really harsh doctor's decision as like this, it's not that I will waste money on cigarettes but they just stick on like that with their decision. I'm really mentally tired too when thinking of "If I will get money", then life really had to be like this and I have no choice, my salary hopefully won't be stucked because it's my hard work, I really must continue this 4 more days left of work and hopefully I finish this month fully and get money, it's really crazy the feelings of not getting hard earned money. Doctor is too much already.