Tomorrow is a Working Day

Finally to experience the toughness of work again, I really hope I do well every working day, it's just too much overthinking happening to me maybe that I feel like I may give up, but it's something I wanted since long time ago, I wanted to work here thinking I will be fine, the anger from money being stucked still around I wonder how doctor will settle it, it's really a long wait for the money, I really just want to have a normal life again not becoming poor but my goal was to fix my body, mind and bank, then it didn't happen because my jobclub money I didn't receive and nobody help me by reminding me it was ever stuck and I've experienced it before and still haven't gotten back my money. It's really bad that they are doing this kind of thing to me, I really want my money but I have to question or ask about it.

It's really crazy this painful experience not remembered by me maybe because I became too angry and loss my memory, means people can easily not give me my money and I don't know about it and lose them all, it's really harsh but my life is like that, I wonder what happened in the past all my money gone maybe it's a dream of losing money even, it's really bad my memory doesn't help me back.

All I have to do is continuing to take medications and hopefully my memories come back and I don't lose my memory because of the anger being too much, it's just sad that they don't choose to remind me and give me back my money, I even have readers that don't communicate with doctor for me about my money not being given, it's really crazy they only made me feel like I got the correct attention of people then it's all just an illusion of comfort and settling something in my life.

I have to go through this heavy part of my life again, and then hopefully they don't hold my 1st cut of money again because it's been so long my life not earning and I can't be made to quit if they don't give my money of course I will think of quitting then I lose from penalty money, the anger is crazy and they really did it to me multiple times. They're secretly evil causing to be my enemy in secret before death kind of thing, I really have nobody to ask for help from.