Trying to do well

I trying my best to work hard, the ache is healed maybe during morning to my working moment, this duration of rest is important to heal my pain from working the previous day. There's really no energy of work except Motorcycle License and World War money savings, I really want to do well but yesterday O.T only answered me that I will be working, I expect an answer from doctor that is psychic but if doctor scripted to create boredom I really don't know, I really wish for a psychic answer.

Tomorrow is Off day I'm happy about it, my rest will be a long rest I guess, it's difficult I don't have anyone to talk to, my brother suggested that I quit the job then I told him doctor maybe contact agent and tell to disallow me from working, means I really can't get a job on my own, it's really harsh, it's like a war against psychic that doesn't want to give pleasure of answers, but then was the answer the same as "working" last year? Or it's a new answer this year, I really can't remember, the energy to imagine $500 penalty money if don't go to work is quite crazy, why doctor let me work hard then I got no money from work? Why is doctor like that to me last year? I just hold on believing another doctor that I will receive money in May, I don't get my jobclub money but I am still working here is odd, I really don't know what to do I really feel helpless. The sad thing my off day is on the same day of my injection means I don't get another day off, it's still a working hard moment for me, I'm feeling quite bored how nobody support me with this job, I really am still in a dilemma but I really want this job, it's like I will suffer instead. Will my neighbour really join me in this job like story of doctor? I really don't know about it.

To have someone in this job is like having a friend, it would be nice to kill time together earning world war money, I really don't know why I joined jobclub if I don't get my money again, I lost my money like nothing and doctor believe I will lose if I sue him, it's weird it's something that I don't have to do in the end, because he's a doctor. It's stupid my life thinking of working hard and earning money but then worry if doctor will hold this money too, I really have worked hard can't be paying $500 penalty if skip work, it's weird such thing is like a lie. I will go to work today because it's only 6 hours to do, I really want to spend my time properly like this.

Sakinah have no idea what I should do, even Wahdiah and Shahridah didn't comfort me when I feel this troubled by doctor, it's really crazy like another version of Alysha is the doctor's decision of keeping money. $306 is alot and it happened twice then I don't know when I will receive the money, there's no calls about not giving money too.