Wow sweet potato

My mother cook sweet potato today, I'm so happy, I ate it with rice, and have kuah also. It's something like magical strength I get from eating it, haha I remember in I.M.H if we get that as food I will feel stronger for awhile.

Today the job was fine, 4 hours of standing up then I'm still okay about it. It's 11a.m-3p.m working hours, then Monday-Friday, $914/month, it's quite satisfying anyway, a light job for recovery moment should be fine, I'm starting job next Monday because today is just a job trial. I hope I will be fine at work, and last long at this workplace, I really have nowhere to go, my sickness is too much that I can't work nicely anyway most of the time, it's just 4 hours anyway quite satisfying, then I really don't know what job is it that I take home $1400, as the salary is only $914, I find it weird my memories about doctor like don't match at all, maybe I will find another job myself and will quit this job as fact? I really don't know what's happening to my life, the estimation becomes different about life, I think I will just hang on to this job first taking the little salary.

It's a weird feeling like I don't think I will get the $5K savings with this kind of salary, I really don't know what will happen to my life, if I can hang on or not, I work at level 2 and there's only O.T that visited me, I think it's like I will find another job myself maybe, exist like backpain now I don't know why, it's only a standing job but exist the pain, I really want to remember what doctor said, if it's $914 it can't be this job that I stay and learn mathematics by myself? I really wonder what's going to happen, the job looks quite easy, even have orang cacat or tak kuat that works there, then they are fine about working there, I think I must just continue working there, it's like a sad feeling because I don't know if I will work there for a long time, today my legs in pain anyway, I get the dark vision today, it's hard like this what will happen to me can I carry on? It's like i ever work here before then quit too, then they give me the same job, last year I only work 15mins I think then I got bored and quit, it's so easy the job, I don't feel like quitting at all. I hope I can hang on, but I don't know what is going to happen to my life, if saving $5K it can't be this job? Even 5 months is not $5K, I don't feel energized to buy the $5K savings at all, I wonder what job it is, doctors didn't call me to tell me but let me be like this.