Day 260 out of ward(308 on medications)

My video about change of feelings at Woodlands Drive 50 have 439 viewers, it's so many I feel so famous, hahaha. The change of feelings due to the Tree cut off and there's no more Tree at there as shelter. I tried to live up the nostalgic feelings, I just need the correct vision because sometimes I experience like Hazy vision, Blur vision and even Dark vision if walk too much.

The recovery feeling sometimes live again, because I don't want to give up yet, I woke up at 7.25a.m just now to take my medicine and then I showered. It's really a great feeling being on a spree of taking medicine correctly, the days to become 1 year on medications are just 57 days left, and 105 days left to be feeling out of ward for 1 year.

Simba live up my feelings again yesterday they have a rollover of 6 cycles that unused datas are not something gone but brought forward to next months, it means if I don't use any data at all 3TB of data is available? Wow I'm so happy about it, my w.w.f.g will definitely be fun to have so much data. I feel like doing a solo exploration at dark nights to woodlands park but I really don't know, I may be scared to walk alone, the hardship of having no friends are real, I really miss living my life that even with little money my friends would still accompany me outside, it's really bad to have no friends for years but my life truly became like this.

Yesterday I almost gave up because of only 3 viewers at some of my post I deleted and undelete the blog, then only because I remember if I am warded to continue having the blog, I plan to bring my android this time into ward if I were to be warded again, it's really sad how it happened so many times for years then being someone that score 100% in all subject is not something that my family wish for it to happen again, they probably didn't know I score so high as fact, then the no support or achievement to goal that I feel good happens, there's just normal feelings of life like others feel but other people definitely feel more in life because they work and have money, I'm lucky I didn't have steady after Aby if not the girl would suffer alot unless she work and have own money, it's really bad I see quotes that I am not supposed to find a girl as a broke man but it's more like I don't want the feel wasted so I want the girl that I want, I feel like I need her to live my entire life peacefully.