In the morning I woke up around 4a.m, I went for a smoke then I tried registering PayNow then it's successful, I now have a PayNow that's my mobile number and my lifestyle set-up feels complete, it feels like I have done everything I needed to have a life, in the past the registration always failed.
Today I take medicine almost close to 8a.m then it feels like I will keep doing this better job everyday, the alarm goes off at 7.25a.m but I forgot medicine then fall asleep again, nowadays I start to feel heavy about medicine but I just keep going and doing what I supposed to do.
Today is Sunday the shop is closed so I bought redbull at vending machine for $1.30, now the price have also increased at shop into $1.20, it's okay I guess, one day I quit smoking then it's finished I assume, the weight of smoking is too hard then I am surviving as a smoker that's trying to quit everyday.
I feel like buying O level revision books to learn myself for next year, it's maybe going to be fun anyway but I really don't know, it's going to be learning by own self anyway? I really don't know what to do about my life. Yesterday the vision of seeing 2 heads with the eyes terjojol didn't really scare me as it's like a when I close my eyes awhile then I see them, it's like a vision instead, I wonder what it means, it's like a quick dream too. I remember yesterday I dream of ghost stories too, my heart didn't feel scared but I'm fine about it, it was fast and I woke up quite quickly.
I wonder when is my learning spree on Iqra, I feel so bored but the feeling must exist to do such thing, if I feel so dull I can't learn, it's the anhedonic feeling causing it.
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