Like leaving blogger

Feel like just leaving blog, but my viewers became more than 10 usually, when I just started it's usually 9 as the maximum, now it can be over 15, I wonder who are the readers, but it's okay too.

I am trying to remember what will happen to me in May/June/July 2026, will I start learning, I plan to buy the 75 English Essay at Shopee, but I really don't know, it feels like I will buy the triangle pencil case, then I really don't know too, the memory like have such thing said before by doctor, am I really focusing on medication?

I imagined that I will leave tomorrow, like just leaving it online and not writing anything, it's really weird how I effort to receive help from my family then nothing is working, it's just a normal daily life, like Ustaz Harun said kalau takde duit makan maggi sudah, I think he's serious about such thing, because he's an ustaz. It's just unlucky how people let my parents plan my life this way, it's an endurance instead of freedom, it really sucks but I have to go through it like a man, it feels like a physical training the pain of anger and I'm just unlucky it continues until this age.

Nobody helped me about relationship too, it will all lead into self-destruction 100% and nobody cares if it does too, I feel really sad they don't mind me destroying any chances with girls.