Just to see and watch whoever looks at my blog, it's like I have attention and not at the same time, I hope I have attention about Alysha's freedom is unfair and injustice, then I can't do anything about it, not that I want to jail her, I just want my Niece to be a richer life that she supposedly should be getting by Alysha's penalties, then me too my mental is weak so like I can become believing voices after I do not believe it, because my memories replay back in the same sentences that I heard that caused me anhedonic or in pain, it's really sad someone so small like Alysha gets to do violent sentences on me and physically abuse Dina, she's not getting away like she wished is what I hope to get help from counsellor 1 day. It's unfair.
Anyway Korban is evidence my parents have money but I can't do anything about it, I feel sad but I have money then people become "no problem" again, what about my future, August settles it again, I'm really dead meat surviving like this but people and family carry on letting me live like this full of sadness, it's depressing but I don't have a depression because I take medicine probably that's why I don't need prozac but fluoxetine(a smaller amount that prozac but it's called prozac too), it's really like haloperidol is smaller amount of risperidone. I really don't know what to do.
I feel that Ustaz won't side me at all about my family way of care, it's sad and disappointing, even doctors don't side me that I can provide myself a better care with money, like happiness to plan of going out to try search for Sakinah, then Ustaz and doctors also let me grow old until reaching 38 years old next month, it's really sad how people are being less helpful to me, I really hope counsellor talk to Ustaz and Doctors for me too as they claim as my adopted family anyway, like why they agree with my family's way of care despite the status that they have?
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