Remembered something else

I remember about having keyloggers in my 2nd sister's ex-husband, I wonder how long it's been around the spying, then I felt normalized about she leaving him, but if he didn't spy he wouldn't found out she's chatted with a selenger guy too, it's really weird the trust really broken like nothing.

I wonder what happen in life, but I pity Dina, is she really going to have 3 different families, one is my 2nd sister's current husband, my mind cannot become normal thinking that my 2nd sister will sex with another man, I really feel not perfect and doctor is right that I will become crazy most probably, because even with medicine I can lose my memory. It's really harsh whatever they went through, her ex-husband quickly got a new wife too, it makes the story to be leaning more to my 2nd sister's as right, but I guess my luck in life like that, because of other's divorce, I am the one who may become insane because of the perfection of family I don't want it broken, it's really sad like I would want to break it too like having sex with prostitutes to have a child with one, but then like I said my number is too cool to do that, it's definitely an expensive phone number but I got it: 80244202, nobody in the right mind would give away this kind of number, then I remembered about my mother losing 82000242, then I guess it's fine after that, because it's actually weird like 2426776 is my bedok reservoir's number.

I think one day my 2nd sister will sue her ex-husband for putting a spying tool on his computer then means privacy got taken away, but I really don't know if she will drag to such thing, means my conversation really got known too with anyone, then it's really bad anyway, the shock is I remembered about hearing voices anyway, I wonder who is it, why it's so long and the same thing over and over again, but now when I take my medicine, the voices are just old memories after all, so I wonder who are the culprits behind what I write, like Alysha ever made me think lineage of Prophet are gays so I became not fearing of the war against Islam when I thought I am Dajjal. Alysha was really bad she really made me thought I am Dajjal.

Dina seems fine going to meet her father every week I think, I think whatever it is I hope for a nice peaceful love story, that my mind can accept my 2nd sister may have a child with her current husband, psychologically my mind cannot accept it maybe because I kept losing my memory but maybe because doctor said that I will become crazy that she still don't have a child yet, I really love babies then I hope when Dina marries, it becomes okay she have babies before me too if I don't get married or marries late, it's really sad the balance, but I'm fine about it, I would want to see new babies in family 1 day. My love for babies cannot end like I just love their cheek, and kiss them, then I remembered about Dina, it feels like so fast then it's actually been so many years almost 20 years, wow, my 2nd sister and her ex-husband really broke is what shocked me as she's the smartest in family, known as that, then that happens, I really dont know what will happen and I was shocked, whats more shocking is that he put a keylogger in computer, means everything keyed including password can be known too, it's really sad like that. But anyway I've changed my password long time ago anyway, but it can make me remember old passwords.