10.09.26 I will go to Merlion to see if Shahridah still remembers me, I really don't know but our promise was like that for the year 2026, we promised more than 15 years ago. I'm supposed to meet her during my anniversary with her, something like that. I will be around there until the night happens because it's the moment we will become difficult to search for people, it's really harsh if she don't remember I'm okay too I guess, I really don't know as her status is "Mdm." anyway. The promise is like that because doctor said that I will recover 38 years old.
I don't know I feel wasted like I didn't make such promise to Wahdiah, it's weird I was not reminded of the conversation, but she became a hard worker type of person anyway, maybe she will be busy with work.
I'm so unstable in life, thinking of girls made me so unstable, I'm supposed to lose my memory I guess but it didn't happen. Means 10.09 if she didn't appear I probably may become angry until memory loss, but I will take my medicine then it's just anger and no memory loss, I hope I'm not in pain in future. It's Saturday anyway so maybe she will be around? I really don't know too.
I hope I get a good job where I will already work smart earning good money to survive my life, I have received no help at all, August and September luckily have Government's money to receive, then I still can go and try my luck if Shahridah remembers me.
It's weird if I start learning O level in August, so it maybe won't happen, I feel like I won't become someone successful now, I really don't know what's happening to my life.
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