Checked my CPF

So little CPF then hospital bill is crazy from 29 June to 31 July is $3500+ then 1 Aug to 15 Aug is $1500+, just going to hospital already costs $5000+, I imagine if my father give me so much money after that I would've bought computer for myself, I wonder why my family are not like that, just little uses everytime.

CleanMark Solution enter CPF then i am still growing at there, haha it's funny my little CPF.

Next year O level will use my PSEA Account to pay for it then receive money from my father maybe to pay the school, then I actually will have a lot of money maybe, I really don't know.

I thought 38 years old I will become a hacker but theres no news about my life, it's still the same I guess, there's really no growth, I wonder what the imaginations for, is it from Alysha also or doctor telling me the truth? Its really bad my life I really want a job that I can do.

People don't count my PES E9L9 when demanding me a job, they would just tell to work anyhow just to earn money, people are uncaring to me, I feel like I will suffer, it's bad how I kept hearing voices of demands to work and solat, then Alysha uses different voices to demand me such thing, I really hear her voice now, it's really bad. Whatever makes a feeling that's not nice becomes into my mind in form of voices, why is schizophrenia like this?

Why nobody pity me like buy me things like Ice Cream or something, I'm let to grow older with anhedonia then the pleasure in life like a little kid's stomach, people don't really care I eat so little but became so fat, I'm going to become someone that's fat and lazy maybe, it's really bad my health.