Day 312 out of ward(360 on medications)

I wonder why it's like that, 5 more days it's only 27th June 26 then 29th June 25 was when I started medicine, it's supposed to be 7 more days then 1 year on medications? Nvm maybe it's because some month 31days some month 30days and 1 mth 28(on February) days.

I realize I need to keep writing a lot due to wanting my English language to be good next year for O level, yesterday I just felt better in health like don't need to write anything, then I think I should just write anyway today because I want to improve my language.

It's 22nd June today, a Monday - Just 8 more days then it's July, then 6 more days it's my injection, so my injection is in 2 weeks+! It feels really fast the every 4 weeks injection.

I'm really tired like I am thinking what's going to happen in my life this year, I really have no plans kind of lifestyle then people really let me grow up to have nobody for real, they left me all alone without a lover and I only eat and drink daily at home, they really don't mind if I don't get married due to schizophrenia. It's sad but I think I am okay to be married because I'm not crazy, my schizophrenic neighbours married and have children they are fine in their marriage, I must do something like that too. Im reaching 40 years old in 2 years then nobody cares I am not married, it's really a sad life experience.

I hope I can write in Malay language 1 day to improve my Malay language too.