Done Jobclub, 5 times left to go.

I wonder what's taking Popeyes so long to hire me, I really want to end all the pain about money, Jobclub 1 month probation is quite long, as won't receive allowance during this period. It feels like there's 2 stories in my memory, 1 is I still smoke, another is 1 no longer smoke when I work at Popeyes. I wonder which is the real one.

Today is Day 151 out of ward on medications and 199 days on medications, I'm finally hitting 200, then 240 would be 2/3 phase done, still more than 1 month to go.

I'm in Bus now otw home, I wonder what my mum cooks today, I'm so hungry now.

My Simba data is 596mb/400gb now, tomorrow it renew I think, finally trying to feel like a normal android user like others who kept staring at phone, I only need an earpiece I think then I can spend time on Iqra most of the time. I'm following nice Arabic reading pages that guide on how to read and pronounce, even have a countdown to try read first before listening to the correct pronunciation, I hope I bump into this alot, I'm understanding Arabic alot more now, like other ways of writing an an Arabic alphabet.

Haha, I took photo awhile, I like how Simba data allows me to even blog peacefully in Bus, with enough data, laptop usage would be fine too. I'm now looking at my picture I think is funny but nowadays I just post my photo, following (S) that just post any photos of hers, I think I'm 37.5 years old now too old to be glamorous or memikat kind of poses.

It's weird I understanding my title of post as something interesting will actually attract more readers by next day at least then I still can't discover who are the readers that's at attention, I also wonder when doctor will be in touch with me normally as I really don't know about (S), does she feel like I'm spying her? I really miss her that's all, it became boring browsing her profile as she blocked others from seeing "Iman" and her in the tunang wear, I wonder what she's doing if she's not married yet, if she had sex I truly feel she's not my soulmate, I can't understand why she don't understand my worries anyway. I mean I wouldn't want a girl that remembers the first husband all time in relationship, then I rather a girl become schizophrenia and it actually helps to lose memory of relationship too.

I really don't feel like she is caring my heart but just not exposing her lifestyle to me maybe because I'm the cause of her limiting her profile from a kind of view from others. It sucks like this I have no updates but just her face that she have picked that I'm allowed to see, I wonder why she pick her image if not attracting me, because she have other photos too at other than Facebook.

I still haven't reach expressway now, and I'm writing just because of happiness of Simba data. I maybe will write more at home later.