Day 192(240 on medications)

Finally I'm 2/3 of a year done on medications, I only have 1/3 left to become a year taking medications.

My Simba data usage is 0.99gb/400gb.

Yesterday I dreamt alot, in a cruise ship walking so fast, with a celebrity and a footballer eating McDonald's together, 2 jealous girls that I was walking with celebrity, we went up escalator then accidentally went out after 1 level only. I dreamt of having RG477V and playing with random people multiplayer games, it feels good holding and having RG477V.

I wonder what the dream means, the girl was the happiest walk to be with me as her boyfriend, I also dreamt of Fandi Ahmad and my Father.

I'm less excited about writing my recovery feelings because there's no presents or gifts like the small girl had made me believed, if take medications will be rewarded money, it's sad I hear and hope for such things, I really wonder how I can survive it's Ramadan and I sleep until 9a.m, it means I need to sleep right away after maghrib to feel fresh tomorrow for work, I'm sad how there's nobody responding to my blog, even leaving 1 post as empty viewer as viewed from main website I think, I just left it 0 without reposting again because I'm lazy for attention. I wonder why such things happens after Chinese New Year.

It's bad if I'm not recovering yet after so long of taking medications but my dreams made me feel energetic like I will recover, my Mood Support Pills are finishing soon too. Daily I feel bored and yesterday I didn't read Iqra again I think I forgot but then I remembered about something I loss memory about, I remember I sold a phone then bought the same exact one the next day wasting $40+ like that, it's sad I became so stupid wasting money like that but it's actually i loss memory that I sold my phone away, I wanted to have more money because given budget package from government then in the end I sold and rebought the phone, so stupid I loss memory and doctors wasn't around to help me counter my waste of money, this means doctors not always around on time like I have felt, it's maybe like illusion or I loss memory about such thing. It really ache my heart having schizophrenia and kept losing memory, then people are not being supportive but just living daily life like I'm a normal person.

I now feel like selling this phone to buy a 16gb ram phone but I think I'm not doing it, it's just for the speed of using the phone. I feel like my order for Ayatul Kursi Necklace have failed and I need to order again from different link, they still haven't sent me the item for so long already, the posters still only at stage 1 "Order Placed" and the order is not moving, I wonder why I have to feel all these in life.