Mid-Day Dream

I dreamt that I had haircut for $4, I dreamt of carrying chicken and bread, 1 bread part dropped on the floor, then bought Milo that costs $1 for 50 cents, the seller put back 50 cents into my coinbag.

I slept awhile in the afternoon just now because of feeling tired, tomorrow is last day of jobclub and I'm happy about it is ending, then it's a day off then work at Tampines, I'm happy I've gotten a job at Tampines. The excitement is real it's definitely 1 of the happiest thing to happen to me and I'm really working at 1.30P.M until 7.30P.M, means I wake up in the morning and not sleep until night time as usual, it's definitely an adventurous feeling this coming job at Tampines.

I really wonder what my dream meant, it's like a memory instead, like it was real, I mean the Milo being cheap feels like shop at School is supposed to be cheap, I wonder what school is it too, the dream felt so real like it ever happened, or maybe I dreamt this before.

I bought Milo at shop for $2.20 after waking up from that dream.

I really feel heavy my life, I really want Sakinah to be around to think stuff for me, or to support me with money, with her I feel like asking for money but with other girls I don't feel like asking for money at all, it's maybe because of the feelings like soulmate, it's weird I became like not so shy of Sakinah but it's impossible because my face turned red if I'm shy then she made me that way in M.R.T that time, I really have no one that will get her for me, she still haven't love me and living her life "in peace" without me, it's weird to believe she's my soulmate then she didn't news me that she didn't get married then suddenly just living life, it's weird she really looks like she's not married in my memories of her videos, but it could be a dream too. It's been 1 year then she really living her life instead of thinking for me solutions on what to do in life, like I have to do common sense of working even if I'm schizophrenic, I haven't recovered but had to work, anyway I'm happy about tomorrow as my last day of jobclub earning total of $162 in March, +$144 in February that I will get end of March it's $306 total earnings.

I guess will be doing cold turkey to not have cigarettes in month of April then it's the end of the pain of cigarettes, I really don't have to smoke anymore my entire life hopefully. It's weird there's no break time at workplace for that but I have to believe it's really like that. It's really okay though because the money is big $1600/mth, I'm truly happy about it.